♥ Going to Kohl’s this morning to return a pair of shoes.

♥ I’m not likin’ the new Jonas Brother’s t.v. show. I mean, really?

♥ I still have to make out my grocery list. Emily is tired of being without food and started a list for me the other day.

♥ Remember my friend Oreo, and how I kicked him out of my life for good. Well, he has a friend, Mint Oreo, my new best friend.

♥ Girl’s sleep over was rescheduled for Thursday night.

♥ My new favorite song is Then, by Brad Paisley.

♥ I’m behind again on the reading of blogs, hope to stop by this afternoon.

♥ Mr. UPS man will be delivering Shred to my front door tomorrow afternoon. Stay on the look out, I’ll be giving one away in the next couple of days. And if you want to earn brownie points, go ahead and sign up for my feed now, instead of waiting until the giveaway.

♥ I’m still trying to figure out what to use for History next year.

♥ I want to paint the downstairs den green. We still need to paint Audrey & Sarah’s room

♥ I cannot wait to go on vacation!

I remember the day that I found out I was pregnant with Emily. We had been trying to get pregnant for a month and on that 28th day, I woke up to get ready for work, and thought I’ll just take this test real quick. I never thought it would show up as a positive, since we had just started trying to get pregnant.

I remember waking up David and telling him. Needless to say, we were excited. Once I got to work, I called my obgyn and told them, they wanted me to come in that afternoon for a blood test. I was scared to death. Of two things, knowing I was pregnant and knowing in just a few short hours, someone was going to be sticking a needle in my arm to draw blood.

Once we got to the office and they drew blood, I was sent back out to the waiting room. I don’t remember much about the time we spent out there. I was so worried that the OTC test would be wrong and that in fact we were not pregnant.

They called us back and confirmed that yes, we were going to have a baby. Our first born.

And in just 8 short months, I had Emily. The sweet, little, pink, baby girl that turned me into a mommy.

Being my first born, I learned a lot of mommy stuff on her. How to feed a baby. How to change a diaper. How to swaddle. Teaching her to talk and walk. And later to read & write.

Now she is entering the “tween” years and we are learning a lot more firsts together. She is growing up, and pretty soon she will make me a momma to a beautiful teenage daughter.

And it is hard.

You know, when she was little, if I messed up, it was a little mess up. If I got her food too hot, she got burned. If I didn’t change her diaper quick enough, she got a diaper rash. All things that can be fixed with a hug or kiss.

In the back of my mind, I go through all the what if’s, the main one being, what if I mess her up!

Our relationship has already started becoming different. She looks at me differently, just as I look at her differently. She is no longer a “little girl” her feelings, body & mind are changing, sometimes, what seems like every day. There is so much about her I don’t understand. I try to remember what it was like to be this age. But honestly, I can’t. It is so different today than it was when I was her age. Ten years old today is not like a 10 year old from my youthful days. It’s more like a 13 year old and in some cases like a 16 year old.

Emily is a beautiful girl, growing into such a sweet young lady. Every day it seems she has grown a little more mature. Yes, we still battle some things,like the huffing, and eye rolling, but when I think about it, she has learned these characteristics from me. And it absolutely breaks my heart. Do you know how hard it is to tell your child not to roll their eyes at you, when not 5 minutes ago, you just rolled your’s at them.

I don’t know if this will make sense, but do you ever think you need to better yourself, break habits, change your attitude,or whatever it might be, not necessarily for yourself, but for your children, so they can be a better person. That it might become easier for them to be the person that God will have them to be, a person that he can use for His honor & His glory.